Today is an interesting day to say the least
I was told by my ex that I am an unfit father. The lies and filth that she spews still amazes me. For a long time I let it effect me in a negative way. Verbal abuse is so horrible, there is no way to explain to the person that the things they say hurt you so deeply. They don’t understand as well that a human being can only take so much of it before they are done, and that doesn’t ever change from that moment on.
The reason for this all is that she found out that I am going to father another child. I am pretty proud that I am going to be a father of this child. I think that I am a great father to my daughter now. I love her very much and I will do anything for her. Someday I will be in a better financial situation and maybe have a good career where I can be there physically more for her, but for now I have to get myself together so that when this new child comes I will be able to do the same for him or her.
Being a father is one of the most complicated things in life, it seems. There is this balance that seems impossible to find between being there for your family and working to support your family. Unfortunately the way life goes sometimes you have to make choices that are hard to do, but you know that in the end it will be better for everyone.
Changing careers at 30 years old has been difficult to say the least. After I realized that my former career of 14 years was no longer going to not only provide for me financially, but it would make being a parent and loving husband very difficult. Working in the restaurant business is for single people and young people. I am neither, so I felt the need to adapt. Plus restaurants are high stress and low return on income with very little chances of having any real benifits. Not exactly something that is good for a healthy family lifestyle.
I decided to go into construction for a couple of reasons. First is that it is a career that can be very lucrative. Many people are doing very well in this career, and it is possible to either be self employeed or work for a larger company that will take good care of you. I’m not quite sure where I’ll go on that one, but it’s nice to have a choice. Second is that I have friends that do it, so I knew I would be able to get a foot in the door. Starting over at an older age is not always easy, so it’s good to be able to have people take you under thier wing and teach you thier trade. I also like that I am learning skills that will teach me how to make my own home someday.
